I should protect myself better

Today I find there's someone who like to pretend to be hero, and criticize others seriously with occupying a commanding position. Furthermore, there's also someone sneering at her side. Their objective is me, the girl who is always being alone, whose life experience is faded and fallen, who has violated only a little bit wrong things, who treats self-respect more important than anything, furthermore, who does something wrong which is absolutely not affect their benefit.

To protect my self-respect, I then keep on doing the wrong thing, although I have already known my fault and the consequences of doing it. Until my self-respect is violated more seriously than before, I have recovered my reasonable sense. Many people around me criticized me together, and this instigates the rampant arrogance of that lady, she is in an emotion of being the heroine and is proud of herself.

"It's none of your business!" What I can explain and protect myself is just this sentence.

"It is." She said, and still being arrogant.

I go away immediately, feel myself is treated badly by those people, by their words, attitudes and sneering. My tears gush out immediately when I reach another place, still there are many people surround me and they are chatting with their friends.

It's awful that I haven't carried the handkerchief with me in my pocket. However my tears gush our so quickly, both tears and snots out. I hurriedly cover my lower part of face, and want to go to the toilet to wash my face. At this time I also have some things to be carried. I stand up, do not have the courage for looking around for help.

I try to pick up my stuffs with only one hand. Every time there's something drops to the ground, I had to pick them up again and again.

Every time when I repeat doing this , I eagerly hope someone surrounded me can lead me a hand, or just give me clean paper goods,but no one comes to me.

Finally, I find it is the real aprearance of life.

Finally, I understand that there are many people in this society prefer to pretend to be apologists of justice, rather than become angels offering love. Because the happy feeling of challenging the self-respect of others and conquer them is much better than the pity feeling of sacrifice.themselves.

Next time I should learn to be much smarter, I never pay attention to those kind of people, keep silent and then go away directly. Any argument is useless and ridiculous. A person will only protect herself naturely and never listen to other people's explanation. Both I and that lady are like this in this case. Any criticism only initiate battles between people, if they are not sworn friend knowing each other's characters.